296. Dream given to Raymond Aguilera on 21 February 1993 at 6:32 AM.

I had a dream about a new residential housing tract construction site. Construction workers were building a few houses in the suburbs. My brother and I were there to deliver something, and that's all we were supposed to do. I don't know how or why, or where we were supposed to deliver this thing. But we were supposed to go there and deliver this thing, whatever it was. So we delivered this thing, I believe it was sand. Construction workers were working between the houses, painting them, some were putting on stucco, and some were just framing.

There, in the street, I could see these two old men working with this grader, shoveling and pushing sand on this new street. This wasn't an ordinary asphalt street, I believe it was concrete or something that looked like concrete, but I am not sure, for they were using methods of construction I had never seem before, but these two old men were grading it. My brother and I were watching, our job was just to deliver this sand, or something.

Everyone else was working, and we were just standing around watching. Finally, My brother got bored and followed someone over this little hill. I was left there alone, and started getting bored too. So I started looking for the man who hired me. For I wanted to get paid so I could leave. I kept hearing this old man, working and moving sand from here to there, with this other old man.

I started to get very curious as to what he was saying. I listened to him and watched, as he worked. He didn't pay any attention to me, and ignored me. I just stood around like a dummy, listening to the people, and watched as they worked. Somehow I felt like I was just out of high school, or something like that. For I knew the principles of construction, but this road was somehow different and new.

The next thing I see, I am following this old man, like a wet nosed kid. This man was old, and somehow I sensed he was the boss, but I didn't know. He didn't look like the boss, everyone else seemed to be doing their own job in the construction of these few houses. I could see people come and ask him questions, but his mannerisms didn't fit those of a Boss.

It appeared that the only thing he had on his mind was this little section of road he was working on. He seemed to be working on it by himself with the exception of this other old man. So, I decided to ask him where the man that pays the bills. For I had already done my job, and I didn't want to stand around wasting time.

I said, "Where is the Boss?" He kind of ignored me at first. I asked him again, "Do you know who the Boss is?" He didn't say a word, he just kept doing his own thing. I followed him to this house, and in front of this house I could see He was spreading this sand, and showing some guy what to do. I went and asked him again, "Who is the Boss here, someone hired me, and I don't know who he is?" He didn't say a word....

Then he said, "Come over here," and I followed. I just couldn't keep up with that old man. I asked the question again, "Just follow me," He said. So I just followed him. He started to spread some more sand. I said again, "Do you know who owns this company? Someone called and hired me to deliver some sand."

Now, I found myself in this garage with this old man, and there were people all around. For some reason he said, "Follow me", and crawled under a large bottom dump tractor trailer. Somehow this tractor rig was parked inside this residential house garage. It seemed impossible, but it was parked inside.

I have no idea why, but we were both standing in front of the tractor rig, and then suddenly He started to crawl under this tractor to get to the garage doorway. He said, "Follow me." So I followed him underneath this tractor trailer, which seemed so weird. He moved very fast, for such an old man, but I got myself underneath the tractor, and crawled behind him. For some reason the path under the tractor somehow became narrow, and smaller.

Then, when the tractor above me started to move, I started to get frightened, but I managed to get to the other end safely. By the time I got out from under the truck, He was outside shoveling sand. I said again, "Do you know who hired me? I want to get paid. So I can leave." Then he said, "You want to work, don't you?" I said, "Yes, Yeah, I am hungry. You know, I haven't really worked for a while." He said, "Well, take this sand and spread it."

He wanted me to spread it all over this strange concrete surface they were working on; it wasn't asphalt, or concrete. He said, "Take this little shovel, and start spreading it on top of this surface, and do as I tell you. And I thought he said, "And I'll find the guy that hired you," or something like that. He wasn't very clear.

Then he goes over to this guy who seemed to be the man who handled the money, or the accountant. At first I thought he was telling the accountant about me, but as I listened I discovered he was talking about someone else. So the old man says to the accountant, "I am going to send this young man to you. This guy needs some money to fly some place." He said, "Be sure you have his money ready, and the air fare ready by Monday morning. Because I want this guy over there at this place on time."

He was giving this accountant his orders. Then I really understood that this old man was the big Boss; this old man I had been following around. Then He said to Me, "The accountant does a good job. He looks busy, but he is going to do what I tell him, you just watch, and see."

I said again, "Well, who is the guy that hired me?" He said, "Come over here." And He gave me the shovel again, and said, "I want you to spread the sand all over this place, everywhere you see a spot without sand, I want you to spread it over the spot. I remember feeling good, and happy inside, for I now had some real work. For some reason I hadn't been really working, and the job looked easy, and the shovel was small. I figured, its an easy job, and construction work paid pretty good.

So I said, "Well, okay, gee, my brother and I finally got us a little job we can both do, and its not hard." So, I started looking for him, so he could work also. I asked everyone, and someone said he had gone over the hill behind the housing tract with some people. I tried to look for him, without success. I said to myself, "I wonder why he took off. Well, he'll be back."

The old man left and went somewhere else. So, I took the shovel, and started shoveling sand. While I was working, this big tow truck, hauling this car, drove over this unfinished street that was being constructed. I said to myself, "This tow truck is tearing up this new street." But, this old man didn't even get mad. He didn't say a thing, and didn't seem worried. Eventually, I ran out of sand, and He hadn't instructed me where to get more. There weren't any piles of sand to be found anywhere. I walked around looking for the old man.

Finally, I tracked him down, and sort of pinned him to the wall, and said, "Okay, I need to be instructed on what to do, and how to do it." He said, "Hey, wherever you see the sand on the street, keep it wet and spread the sand over the areas that don't have it." He says, "Because people invest good money in property like this. Nobody wants their streets to crack. So, keep the sand wet so the street will not crack. The sand helps it to dry slowly. It will stop it from cracking, for people paid good money for these homes. So, I want you to keep everything wet."

He said, "Come over here, I am going to give you a section that needs sand." I said, "Fine," For now I had some instructions, and knew exactly what should be done. I felt really proud. I took my little shovel, and used the little sand I had, and followed him out, and found myself in front of a garage that needed some sand. So, I proudly spread some sand on the areas that needed sand, like I was some professional sand person.

During this time everyone was doing their jobs, and I was running around with this little shovel full of sand spreading the areas that needed sand. I had been spreading sand for some time, then, all of a sudden, I found myself inside this garage again which had equipment inside. Then an intercom turned on, as I was setting there waiting, telling myself, "What am I going to do now, I am out of sand?" Then the old man started talking to me through the intercom.

I have no idea how he knew I was in the garage, but he said, "Ray, I know you are a Christian." He said, "You're going to hear a lot of things from these construction workers, for they have dirty mouths, and they are going to say some things about Christianity, and stuff like that. So, if they hear you are a Christian, they are going to give you a hard time," He said, " Just don't listen to them." I couldn't hear his warning because of all the noise in this little area.

I tried to listen to this instructions about what to do, and what not to do. For he said the construction workers were going to harass me if they found out I was a Christian. But I couldn't hear his instructions because of the noise of the cars and other activities. I listened as hard as I could, but all these distractions were drowning out the old man's voice on the intercom. Then the instructions just stopped. He never knew that I didn't hear all the advice. All I heard was the beginning: "Just don't let these people shake you by what they say with their dirty mouths", is all I heard. So I said to myself, "I better keep my mouth shut, and say nothing."

So, about quitting time, the voice just stopped. People started coming into this garage, to put up their equipment and stuff. I heard them talking, and I started feeling uneasy and insecure. I remember feeling very uneasy about this job. I had never received full instructions on how to do my job, or, how I would get paid, or, the amount.

But the old man said, "Keep coming back. Come back tomorrow, though I might not be here. Make sure the street doesn't crack, keep it watered, keep the sand on it, and you'll be okay. I'll see you get plenty of work." Then the Dream just stopped. I never knew who the old man was or his name. I tried to look for the company's name on the company equipment, without success. I never found out who would pay me, or how much. All I knew was, that I had a new job. That was the dream.

Comments:

I am still thinking about this dream. I remember praying so hard before I went to sleep last night. I prayed with my whole heart to the Holy Spirit to guide me, and to talk to me. I waited, and I waited, and I didn't get an answer, but I did get this dream. I believe the old man was God, and He was telling me about my job. I'll never understand God, and His ways. He is fair, but He is elusive, and He is loving.

He wanted to give me a job that wasn't very hard. He didn't want the construction workers to pick on me. So, He took the time to tell me, and to warn me what the other workers would do. I have a hard time comprehending why my brother left me alone, maybe my brother was the Body of Christ, and the construction workers were the people of the world, but, he left me alone, and followed something else. I don't know where, but, I was left alone with a little shovel full of sand, and instructions to wet the street, and to place sand on the street so it didn't crack.

I don't know if you are listening Lord, but I love you. I wish I could pin you down. You always seem to slip through my fingers. I just can't seem to sit you down, and ask you, "What's next?" You seem to be four or five steps ahead of me. All I can say, Lord, "Is, I'll try; I'll do my best; that's all I can say." 

296. Ndoto aliyopewa Raymond Aguilera tarehe 21 Februari 1993, saa 12:32 asubuhi.

Mimi nilikuwa na ndoto kuhusu eneo la ujenzi wa makazi mpya. Wafanyikazi wa ujenzi walikuwa wanajenga nyumba chache kwenye maeneo ya pembeni mwa mji. Mimi na kaka yangu tulikuwa mahala pale kupeleka kitu fulani, na hiyo tu ndiyo tuliyo takiwa kufanya. Mimi sielewi ni kwa namna gani au kwa vipi au wapi tulipotakiwa kupeleka hicho kitu fulani. Lakini tulitakiwa twende pale na kupeleka pale kitu hicho, bila kujali ni nini. Kwa hiyo tulienda na kupeleka kitu hicho pale, nadhani ulikuwa ni mchanga. Wafanyikazi hao wa ujenzi walikuwa wanafanya kazi kati ya nyumba hizo, wakipaka rangi, wengine walikuwa wanapiga ripu na wengine wanaweka fremu tu.

Pale mtaani nilikuwa naona hawa wazee wawili wakifanya kazi kwa vyombo vya kupigia reki, wakisukuma mchanga na kusawazisha na kupiga reki, wakitandaza na kusukuma mchanga kwenye barabara ya mtaa huo mpya. Hii haikuwa barabara ya lami ya kawaida, ilikuwa barabara ya zege au kitu fulani kinacho fanana na zege, lakini mimi sina uhakika, kwa maana walikuwa wanatumia njia za ujenzi ambazo mimi sijawahi kuziona kamwe, lakini hawa wazee wawili walikuwa wanasawazisha barabara hiyo. Kaka yangu na Mimi tulikuwa tukiangalia, kazi yetu ilikuwa ni kuleka mchanga huo tu, au kitu fulani.

Watu wengine wote walikuwa wanafanya kazi na sisi tulikuwa tumesimama pale tukiangalia tu. Mwishoni kaka yangu akawa amechoka kuangalia akaenda kumfuata mtu fulani kwenye kilima fulani pale. Mimi nikawa nimebaki pale peke yangu, lakini hata mimi pia nikaanza kuchoshwa kuangalia hayo. Kwa hiyo nikaenda kumtafuta mtu yule aliyekuwa ameniajiri kwa kazi hiyo. Kwa maana nilitaka kupata malipo yangu; ili mimi niweze kuondoka. Nikawa naendelea kumsikia yule mzee, akiwa anafanyakazi, akipeleka mchanga ule hapa na pale, pamoja na yule mzee mwenzake.

Nikawa nimeshikwa na shauku kubwa yakutaka kujua kile anachokisema mzee yule. Nikaanza kumsikiliza na huku nikiwa ninamwangalia anavyofanyakazi. Hakuwa ananiangalia mimi; akawa kama mtu asiyekuwa anahisi kuwa mimi niko pale. Mimi nikawa nimesimama pale kama sanamu, nikiwa nawasikiliza wale watu na kuwaangalia wakiwa wanafanyakazi. Ghafla nikajiona kama mtu aliyemaliza sekondari au kitu cha namna ile. Kwa maana nilikuwa najua namna na mbinu za ujenzi, lakini ujenzi wa barabara hii ulikuwa tofauti na ngeni kwangu.

Kilichofuata kukiona kilikuwa ni mimi nikiwa namfuata mzee huyo, kama mtoto anayependa kujua. Huyu mtu ni mzee, na kwa namna fulani nilikuwa na hisia kuwa ndiye mhusika wa pale, lakini mimi sikujua. Yeye alikuwa haonekani kama ndiye mkuu wa shughuli hiyo, kila mtu pale alikuwa anaonekana akiwa anafanya kazi yake kwenye ujenzi wa nyumba hizo chache. Nilikuwa naona watu wakija na kumwuliza maswali, lakini tabia yake ilikuwa hairandani na zile za Mkuu au Bosi wa mahala.

Inaonekana kanakwamba alicho nacho huyo mzee kwenye mawazo yake ni hiyo eneo ndogo ya barabara hiyo ambayo alikuwa anaifanyia kazi. Alikuwa anaonekana kana kwamba anaifanyia kazi yeye peke yake ukimwacha huyo mzee mwenzake. Kwa hiyo mimi nikaamua kwenda kumwuliza kuhusu alipo mhusika anaye shughulikia kulipa ujira. Kwa maana mimi nimekwisha kamilisha kazi yangu, na yakuwa mimi sipendi kupoteza muda wangu kusimama pale.

Mimi nilisema, "Bosi uuko wapi?" mwanzoni aliendelea na shughuli zake kana kwamba hakunisikia mimi. Nikamwulize yeye tena, "Je, unamfahamu Bosi wa hapa ni nani?" Yeye hakusema kitu, bali aliendelea na kazi yake kama kawaida. Mimi nikamfuata hadi kwenye nyumba fulani, na mbele ya nyumba hiyo nikamwona akiwa anatandaza mchangu ule, na huku akiwaonyeshea jamaa fulani ni nini la kufanya. Mimi nikaenda kumwuliza yeye tena, “Ni nani aliye Mkuu hapa, kwa maana kuna mtu fulani aliniajiri mimi, na mimi simjui ni nani mtu huyo?” Yeye hakusema neno...

Kisha akasema, "Njoo huku," na mimi nikamfuata yeye. Mimi nikawa na shindwa kwenda kwa mwendo huo anaokwenda nao huyo mzee. Mimi nikamwuliza swali tena, “nifuate tu” Yeye akasema. Mimi nikawa naendelea kumfuata yeye tu. Akaanza kutandaza mchanga zaidi kidogo. Mimi nikasema tena, "Je, unamjua ni nani anayemiliki kampuni hii? Mtu fulani aliniita na kunipa kazi ya kuleta mchanga mahali hapa."

Sasa najijiona mwenyewe nikiwa kwenye karakana fulani nikiwa na yule mzee, na kulikuwa na watu kila mahali kwenye karakana hiyo. Kwa sababu nisizozijua yeye akasema, "Unifuate mimi", akajipenyeza kwa kutambaa chini ya lori la trela kubwa la kubebea mchanga. Kwa namna fulani lori hiyo ya trela kubwa, ilikuwa imeegeshwa ndani ya chumba cha karakana ya nyumba hiyo ya kuishi. Inaonekana kama kitu kisichowezekana, lakini ilikuwa imeegeshwa ndani mwake.

Mimi si fahamu ni kwa nini, lakini sisi sote wawili tulikuwa tumesimama karibu na trakta fulani ya kuchimbia, na kisha kwa ghafla huyo mzee alianza kutambaa chini ya trekta hiyo; ili kwenda kwenye mlango wa karakana hiyo. Yeye akasema, “Nifuate mimi.” Hivyo mimi nikamfuata kwa kutambaa chini ya trekta hiyo yenye traila, ambayo ilikuwa inaonekana kuwa ya kioja. Yeye alitambaa kwa kasi sana, kwa mzee kama yeye, lakini mimi nilimfuata kwa kutambaa chini ya trekta hiyo nyuma yake. Kwa namna fulani barabara chini ya trekta hiyo ilianza kuwa nyembamba zaidi na zaidi na ndogo.

Kisha wakati ile trekta iliyoko juu yangu ilipoanza kuondoka; mimi nilianza kutishika, lakini mimi nilifanikiwa kufika upande wa pili kwa usalama. Lakini mpaka nilipotoka chini ya trekata ile, Yeye alikuwa tayari yuko nje akiwa anatandaza mchanga. Mimi nikasema tena “Je, unamjua mtu yule aliyeniajiri mimi? Kwa maana mimi nataka nilipwe. Ili niondoke.” Kisha yeye akasema, "Unahitaji kufanya kazi amasivyo?" Mimi nikasema, "Ndiyo, Naam, Mimi nina njaa. Wajua kwa kweli sijawahi kufanya kazi kwa muda mrefu." Yeye akasema, "Basi chukua mchanga huu na anza kuutandaza."

Yeye alitaka mimi nitandaze mchanga wote juu ya uso wa lami hiyo ya zege ya ajabu wanayoishughulikia; haikuwa lami, au zege. Yeye akasema, chukua beleshi/koleo hii ndogo, na anza kuitandaza mchanga huo juu ya uso wa hiyo barabara na fanya kama ninavyo kuambia wewe. Nikadhania kuwa alisema, “Nami nitakutafutia mtu yule aliyekuajiri wewe,” au kitu kama hicho. Hakuwa anaeleweka vizuri.

Kisha yeye akaenda kwa jamaa fulani pale, ambaye anaonekana kama ndiye anaye shughulikia mambo ya fedha, au mhasibu. Mwanzoni mimi nilidhania anamwambia Mhasibu kuhusu malipo yangu, lakini jinsi nilivyoendelea kumsikiliza vizuri niligundua kuwa anamwongelea kuhusu mtu mwingine. Hivyo yule mzee akawa anamwambia yule mhasibu “Mimi naenda kumtuma kijana huyo kwako. Huyo kijana anataka kusafiri mahala fulani.” Yeye akasema, “Hakikisha kuwa una fedha zake tayari ifikapo Jumatatu asubuhi. Kwa maana Mimi nataka kijana huyo mahala pale kwa wakati unaotakiwa.”

Alikuwa anampa mhasibu huyo maagizo yake. Ndipo hapo nilipoelewa haswa kuwa huyo mzee ndiye Mhusika Mkuu; huyo mzee niliyekuwa nikimfuata kila mara. Kisha akaniambia Mimi, “Mhasibu anafanya kazi nzuri. Anaonekana kuwa na shughuli nyingi, lakini anaenda kufanya kile ambacho nimemwagiza afanye, wewe mwangalie tu na uone.”

Mimi nikasema tena, "Eti, hivi ni nani yule aliyeniajiri mimi?" Yeye akasema, "Njoo mahali hapa." Na Yeye akanipa mimi beleshi tena, na kusema, "Mimi nataka wewe utandaze mchanga mahala hapa pote, kila mahala unapoona haina mchanga, mimi nataka wewe utandaze mchanga juu yake. Mimi nakumbuka mimi nikaanza kujisikia vizuri kwa ndani, kwa maana mimi sasa nina kazi ya uhakika. Kwa sababu fulani mimi sikuwa na kazi ya kufanya, na kazi hiyo inaelekea kuwa rahisi, na beleshi yenyewe ilikuwa ni ndogo. Naamini ni kazi rahisi, na kazi ya ujenzi kwa kawaida huwa inalipa vizuri.

Kwa hiyo, mimi nikasema, “Naam sawa ni jambo jema kwa maana mwisho mimi na kaka yangu tumejipatia kazi ndogo amabyo sote wawili tunaweza kufanya, na wala siyo ngumu sana.” Hivyo mimi nikaanza kumtafuta kaka yangu ili naye aanze kufanya kazi pia. Mimi nikamwuliza kila mtu, na mtu fulani akasema ameenda nyuma ya majengo haya pamoja na watu fulani. Mimi nikajaribu kumtafuta bila ya mafanikio. Mimi nikajiamabia mwenyewe, “Nashangaa ni kwanini alijiondokea mwenyewe. Natumaini atarudi.”

Yule mzee aliondoka na kuelekea mahala fulani. Kwa hiyo mimi nikachukua ile beleshi nikaanza kutandaza mchanga. Wakati nikiwa nafanyakazi, gari kubwa ya kukokotwa ikiwa inavuta gari fulani ikapita juu ya barabara hiyo ambayo haijakamilika na ilikuwa inaendelea kujengwa. Mimi nikajisemea, “Gari hii litaibomoa barabara hii.” Lakini mzee yule wala hakuudhiwa na gari hilo. Hakusema lolote na wala hakuwa na wasiwasi wowote ya kuwa gari hili lingeliharibu barabara hiyo. Mwishowe, nikawa nimeishiwa na mchanga, na Yeye wala hakunieleza nipate mchanga zaidi wapi. Hapakuwa na marundo ya mchanga mahala popote pale. Nikaanza kutembea ili kumtafuta mzee yule.

Mwishoni, nilimgundua alipo na kisha nikama nilimbana, na kisha nikama nilisema, “Naam, mimi sasa nahitaji kuambiwa nifanye nini, na nifanye kwa njia gani.” Yeye akasema “Naam, popote utakapoona mchanga kwenye mtaa uuloanishe na kisha uutandanze kwenye maeneo yale ambayo hayana mchanga.” Yeye akaendelea kusema, “Kwa maana watu wanaweka fedha nyingi kwenye mali kama hii. Hakuna yeyote anayependa kuona barabara yao ya mtaani kupasuka. Hivyo ufanye mchanga kuwa na maji maji ya kutosha ili barabara isipasuke. Mchanga unasaidia kuifanya barabara ikauke pole pole hivyo haitaweza kupasuka, kwa maana watu wamelipa fedha nyingi kwa ajili ya nyumba hizi. Hivyo mimi nataka wewe uhakikishe kuwa kila kitu kinapata maji ili kiwe na ubichi.”  

Yeye akasema, "Njoo hapa, Mimi nitakupa eneo lile ambalo linahitaji kuwekewa mchanga." Mimi nikasema, "Sawa," Kwa maana sasa Mimi nilikuwa na maelekezo fulani na nilikuwa najua fika nini la kufanya. Mimi nikawa najivunia kazi yangu hiyo. Nikachukua beleshi yangu hiyo ndogo, nakuanza kutumia mchanga mdogo uliokuwa humo kwenye beleshi, nakuanza kumfuata yule mzee kule kule aliko, nikajikuta niko nje ya karakana ambayo ilihitaji mchanga. Hivyo kwa furaha nikaanza kutandaza mchanga kiasi fulani kwenye maeneo yaliyohitaji mchanga, kana kwamba mimi nilikuwa mtaalamu fulani wa mambo ya kutandaza mchanga.

Wakati huo wote kila mtu alikuwa akifanya kazi yake, na mimi nilikuwa na kimbia kimbia hapa na pale na hiyo beleshi ndogo iliyojaa mchanga nikiwa na tandaza mchanga kila mahali panapohitaji kujazwa mchanga. Nimekuwa na tandaza mchanga kwa kitambo kidogo sasa, kisha kwa ghafla nikajikuta mimi nikiwa ndani ya karakana hii tena ambayo ilikuwa na mashine na vifaa. Kisha mtandao wa kuongea ndani kwa ndani ukaanza kuzungumza, nikiwa mimi niko pale nikijiambia, “Nifanye nini sasa kwani nimeishiwa na mchanga?” Kisha yule mzee akaanza kuongea na mimi kwa kupitia mtandao ule wandani ya karakana hiyo.

Mimi sielewa jinsi alivyoelewa kuwa Mimi niko pale kwenye kaarakana, lakini yeye alisema, “Ray, Mimi najuwa kuwa wewe ni Mkristo.” “Wewe utaenda kusikia mambo mengi kutoka kwa hawa wafanyikazi wa ujenzi, kwa maana wana midomo michafu, na watakuja kusema mambo fulani fulani kuhusu Ukristo na maneno yanayofanana na hayo. Kwa hiyo wakijua kuwa wewe ni Mkristo watakupa wewe wakati mgumu,” Akaendelea kusema, “Wewe kamwe usiwasikilize.” Nilikuwa nashindwa kusikia maonyo yake yote kwa sababu kulikuwa na makelele eneo hili ndogo.

Mimi nilijaribu kusikiliza maelekezo kuhusu ni nini mimi nifanye, na nini mimi nisifanye. Kwa maana yeye alisema kuwa wafanyikazi wa ujenzi wangeni tesa kama wangelifahamu kuwa mimi ni Mkristo. Lakini mimi nilikuwa nashindwa kusikia maagizo vizuri kwa sababu ya makelele ya magari na shughuli nyingine nyingi zinazo endelea kwenye maeneo yale. Mimi nilijaribu kwa kadri ya uwezo wangu kusikiliza maelekezo ya mzee yule, lakini ghasia za kazi mahali pale ilikuwa inaidhoofisha sauti ya mzee yule kwenye matandao ule wa ndani wa kuongea (intercom) Kisha maelekezo yale yalisimama kwa ghafla. Yeye hakufahamu kuwa mimi sikusikia ushauri wake wote. Yote niliyo sikia ilikuwa mwanzo: “Ebu usiruhusu hawa watu wakutingishe wewe kwa hale watakayosema kwa midomo yao hiyo michafu.” ni yote niliyosikia. Hivyo nikajiambia mwenyewe, “Ni aheri mimi nifunge kinywa changu, na nisiseme lolote.”

Kwahiyo wakati ulipowadia wa kumaliza kazi sauti ile ilisimama ghafla. Watu wakaanza kuja kwenye karakana hii, ili kuhifadhi mashine na vifaa vyao vya kufanyia kazi, pamoja na vikorokoro vingine. Nilikuwa nikiwasikia wao wakizungumza, na mimi nikaanza kujisikia vibaya na kujiona kama sina usalama. Nikaanza kujisikia kama kazi hii haina usalama. Mimi siku wahi kupata maelekezo kamili ya jinsi ya kufanya kazi yangu hiyo, au jinsi ya kulipwa mshahara wangu au hata kiasi.

Lakini yule mzee alisema, “Endelea kurudi rudi. Urudi tena kesho, ingawa inawezekana kuwa kesho labda sitakuwa hapa. Hakikisha kuwa barabara hazikauki na kupasuka, endelea kutia maji, endelea kuweka mchanga juu yake na wewe utakuwa salama. Mimi nitahakikisha kuwa wewe unapata kazi nyingi ya kutosha.” Kisha Ndoto ikakatika ghafla. Mimi kamwe sikujua mzee huyo ni nani na wala jina lake. Mimi nilijaribu kutafuta jina la kampuni yake kwenye mashine za kampuni hiyo bila ya mafanikio. Kamwe sikupata kujua ni nani angelinilipa mshahara Wangu au hata kiasi gani nitalipwa. Kile tu ninachokifahamu ni kuwa mimi nilikuwa nimepata kazi. Hiyo ndiyo ilikuwa ni ndoto yenyewe.

Maoni:

Mimi bado nafikiria kuhusu ndoto hiyo. Nakumbuka nilikuwa naomba kwa nguvu sana kabla ya kwenda kulala usiku uliopita. Niliomba kwa moyo wangu wote kwa Roho Mtakatifu ilianiongoze mimi, na aongee na mimi. Mimi nilingoja na kungoja na sikupata jibu, lakini hata hivyo nilipata ndoto hii. Naamini yule mzee alikuwa ni Mungu, na Yeye alikuwa ananieleza kuhusu kazi yangu. Ni vigumu kwangu mimi kumwelewa Mungu, na Njia zake. Yeye ni wa haki, lakini siyo rahisi kumjua ila ana Upendo.

Yeye alitaka kunipa kazi ambayo siyo ngumu sana. Yeye hakutaka wafanyikazi wa ujenzi wanidhuru. Hivyo alichukua fursa ya kunieleza mimi, na kunionya mimi kuhusu kile wale wafanyikazi wengine wangelienda kunifanyia. Nilikuwa na kazi kubwa ya kufahamu kwanini kaka yangu aliniacha peke yangu, labda huyo kaka yangu ni Mwili wa Kristo, na wafanyikazi wa ujenzi labda ni watu wa dunia, lakini mimi niliachwa nyuma nikiwa na beleshi/koleo ndogo iliyojaa mchanga, na nikapewa maagizo ya kuloanisha barabara ya mtaa na kuweka mchanga iliusikauke nakupasuka.

Sijui kama unanisikiliza Bwana, lakini mimi ninakupenda sana. Ninakupenda sana Bwana, laiti kama ningelekushika kabisa. Lakini kila ninapojaribu kukushika, Bwana Wewe inaonekana kuwa mara unatoka toweka kwenye vidole vyangu. Inaelekea nashindwa kukufanya ukae chini ilinikuulize “nini kifuate?” Inaelekea kila mara wewe unakuwa hatua nne au tano mbele yangu. Ninachoweza kusema Bwana, “ni, mimi nitajaribu, nitajitahidi kwa uwezo wangu wote; hayo ni yote nitakayoweza kusema.”